The Becoming

Matthew 28:18-20

And Jesus came and said to them, “All authority in Heaven and on Earth has been given to me. Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I have commanded of you. And behold I am with you always, to the end of age.

In the above passage, and again in Deuteronomy 31:8, we are reminded that God will never leave us. In any situation of any given day, we can have confidence in knowing that we do not have to be afraid, for He goes before us.

Being under the one who has all authority in everything, it is my hope that in each of my blog posts, whether it be about food, life’s crazy turns, family, etc., that I will be able to point it back to God and give Him the glory. Writing has always been one of my major passions, as is for many others, so I pray that on my new journey blogging, I can continue to grow in my writing, as well as my faith in Jesus Christ, and share some love with all of you guys.

As a freshman in college, I still have so much to learn and improve on, so if any one has any input or constructive criticism, I would love to hear it! I hope you guys enjoy my posts to come, and I’m super excited to read yours as well!

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Until My Last Breath

There’s a little over one million words in the English language, but I could never string any of them together to be able to describe what you mean to me. I don’t know if I’ll be able to show you just how much I love you, but I’ll spend the rest of my life trying.

Unlearning Fear

I’ve spent the last few years learning to hate myself. It wasn’t all self taught– really. I dated the wrong guy at the wrong time. He made it easy to see my flaws, sitting there counting someone’s stretch marks out loud made it hard to miss. He hated me, and everything about me, but… we called it love.

This love was a toxic love though, like an anchor dragging you down through waves of poison. You know those dreams where you’re trying to swim to the top to get a breath of fresh air, but no matter how much you swim up, you can never break the surface? Much like David described in Psalm 69:1, that’s how his love made me feel. The only time I was able to catch a breath, was ironically, when I was drowning in my tears on the shower floor at two in the morning, praying to God that the water would wash me clean.

After almost a year, and several chances to leave, God saw that I wasn’t able to leave, but where I am weak, He is strong. He took me out of that relationship and brought me into one with Him. It was only then that I was able to breathe deeply for the first time. I had finally found the love I was so earnestly longing for, but hopelessly settling for what I thought I deserved, what I thought was as good as it got.

It has been one eating disorder, two PTSD therapists, and 3 years later, and I can honestly say I have never been happier. If God had not been so gracious as to save me and bring me into a covenant with him, and now with a lovely, smart, God-fearing man, I would still be in the deep waters, waves crashing over me, in the toxicity of a silly boy. Although some days I still don’t like myself, I’ve learned to love myself everyday. I’m starting to see what REAL love looks like, and by the grace of God, I’m starting to love others that way as well. I have spent years drowning beneath the waves, but now I am soaring on an Eagle’s wings.

{Psalm 69:1 Save me, O God, for the waters have come up to my neck!                                            1 Corinthians 13:4-8 Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; It does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends.                                                            Isaiah 40:31 But those who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.}

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